BUILDING FAITH

I know when the Lord talked about faith as small as a mustard seed that can move mountains, he knew what he was talking about.

 

I am one of those Christians who daily has to pray for the Lord to increase my faith as I have difficulty exercising the little I have.

I come to Him in prayer and supplication as often as I can, but there have been those hard nut prayers where I have presented my request with one eye open, a doubting Thomas of sorts. A recent such case was healing for a cancer patient where in words I believed for healing but in deed rationalized how this miraculous healing would happen especially with those on ground ,already so faint and reporting the worst. Low and behold the patient passed on. (RIP Mr. Moses Matovu)

Luckily this is not always the case and to build my always lingering faith there are those cheerfully employed examples of the Lord’s hand in my life. Looking back to the far the Lord has brought me is one technique that helps me not only to stand but keep believing.

Sometimes if you are like me as you present your needs to the Lord, you are armed with cheer and height of character, swimming in gratification of what is yet to happen as you continue to pray. One such case was a prayer request I carried on from last year about the same time.

At the start of 2013, it was one of those  1+1=2 prayer requests, Lord do your thing , thanks for the blessing, Amen.  Upon my honor 1+1 wasn’t 2 anymore but a sum that puzzled me and all concerned. It soon became clear that the Lord’s answer was clearly wait, something that doesn’t come easily to some of us.

I stood in the gap again, pleading with the Lord for a miraculous 2 , the yes, but because of previous hurdles  this was mostly done with my eyes half closed. As the wait evolved from, 3 months roll on to one year, in my little grain of faith, I still went on my knees asking for a quick answer, whispering perhaps February Lord.

Luckily time presents no boundaries to the one who created it and as I continued to water my grain of faith the Lord blossomed it with a problem not only solved but signed, sealed and delivered. The timing couldn’t have been any more perfect, an unreserved yes at in January much more earlier than I had anticipated.

This answer has motivated me to keep tending my grain of faith for in every trial there is compensation and we don’t even have to look so hard but simply rest in Him.

I have a gleaming hope for tomorrow, for He who has done this, can do exceedingly, abundantly more. #Gratified.

 

 He has given me the booster to fertilize my faith.

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Talk about speaking in parables, I am not even sure I know what am on about but main thing is God is faithful regardless of whether we are or not.

Live, Laugh, Learn; Of God’s Love and His Children

January is gone, February the shortest month of the year is already here, if my math serves me right 335 days to the end of the year. Most people I imagine would still be on track with their resolutions but since I didn’t make any, as I look back to where the first month has gone, I am grateful for a lifesaving revelation I got in the month.

You see at my age, with no child of my own, I am blessed left, right and center with the gift of being an aunt to most of my age mates’ kids that are in y circle of friends and family. In fact for every month of the year, there is at least one little one’s birthday that I have to remember and celebrate. I remember joking towards the end of last year that I was well tired and done with being an aunt as the presents left a pinch in my wallet especially at Christmas. Well, not so fast coz the Lord has used this God given position to teach me something.

This is more so in the last couple of months that I have constantly spent with a precious 3 year old. It has especially been so special as with this one it is not just the odd visit a couple of days here and there all the annual birthday gift but we have literally spent every waking moment together. In most of this time, I have tried to figure out how the brain of a 3 year old functions as I have strived to teach her some of life’s’ values.

The journey like many has not come without flaws and we have shared the good, bad and ugly of life’s falls and achievements with my already thin patience mostly being tried. On one of these days, it’s like I saw the world with a fresh pair of eyes as I likened this relationship with mine and God’s. The resemblance was just so striking that I was humbled speechless.

God, the whole knowing striving to teach me and give me food to equip me for life’s journey and me sometimes throwing tantrums, other times acting along  that a leap of joy has been in order only for me to come trampling down again. In a moment of forgetfulness or total deviance, I have dismissed things that I should clearly know better by now and yet He loves me still.

In some moments of tough love, I have been stern to the little one that to an outsider who didn’t know the intentions of my heart, perhaps mean and unloving but I haven’t waivered and have stood firm by my word as through the different do’s and don’ts it’s has all been an effort of pouring out my love for her.

 Last Sunday, as we sat side by side in church (she refuses to go to kid’s church) the sermon must have been so boring to her that she leaned into me for a cuddle and in spite of not knowing what goes’ through a 3 year Old’s brain as they go through the highs and lows of learning from older people, I felt secure in her love. In that moment I was just this beautiful aunt that she depended and anchored on. It was so peaceful that I couldn’t help reflecting on how many times I go to the father’s bosom to just lean in and trust that He knows best and is there to protect me.

There have been so many moments but perhaps the one that stands out for me is when I will ask her a question I already know an answer to and will listen in patiently to see how she relates it back to me from her understanding. You see for long I puzzled with the question if God already knows what is in my heart why do I have to go back to Him in prayer and say it back to Him. When this little one has shared an answer to me, it’s always so endearing as it’s filled with lots of innocence and emotions that I have no words to give it save for love. Through a child I have been able to glimpse at God’s affection for me and I know what He meant when through His son he said, “Let the little children come to me and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of heaven.” Matthew 19:14.

Children are a blessing indeed, a gift and since I am the Almighty’s I have echoes of love all around me, the trick is to tune in more.