Mended Road; Going Forward.

I have had lots of adventures, seen places, made friends, done most of it. Some of it has made meaning, some not so much. As I have grown older I have paused to think and consider what is important before making my next move.

After a brief eventful  spell in the great  East coast  I felt like it was time to call it a day and move on to the next adventure. In the past hush decisions had led to me stumbling around a bend, so this time instead of going on a whim, I did lots of spiritual preparation and waited for God to point me in the right direction.

Waiting sucks and since I don’t have the virtue of patience, I deliberately had to separate myself from the forward flow of time determined to hear from God before setting off.  And God did speak or I thought He did, the messages on which was the right direction started flowing in as soon as I said Amen. There was beauty, the good, the bad and ugly but mainly confusion that I decided to just sit tight and give it my best where I was to avoid any wrong moves. And for months there I was striving hard to make it home, to make it work and just be content in the now and then only that there was hardly any peace and with every few steps there was a nudging that where I was wasn’t IT.

As I leaned onto the Father and asked Him to hold my arm, I gradually woke up to life remembering who and why I was on earth and the peace I was eagerly yearning for came in like a rush and suddenly I could feel His hand pointing me in the direction I should go. To cast out any doubt I might have, God continued to send little signs in the days building up to my move that it was the right decision.

Joy and peace settled in and with the move, His confirmation daily that gave me clarity on fact that I was on the right track. I couldn’t help but beat myself up with why it took so long; And then as I looked back I couldn’t deny that with every step I was never alone and there had been purpose.



The lovely Vivian ,my anchor in the waiting

In my waiting He blessed me with the knowledge that the main task of tomorrow is to live fully today fretting not about tomorrow but wholly trusting Him. As I waited I learnt that sharing is the one bridge to real happiness and even as I waited I was not only blessed but was a blessing to others.

Some mysteries are forever but for now I know where I am mistake or not is destined and it is not for me to know the times or seasons that the Father has fixed by his own authority. After all He not only holds time in His hand but makes everything beautiful in His time and if we wait His promises as sure as day after the night will come.