Full Circle

Have you ever walked into a place and felt like living there or working there would be a dream come true? Well in 2014  I was hired by  a Global  Investment Company and from when i got the call that i had been taken on, i couldn't help thinking how lucky i was, actually so blessed to be joining their team. The first 4 weeks had intensive training and went pretty quick with me half the time mesmerized with the palatial building that housed over 500 employees.

With the training done, tests passed soon we were thrown out on the floor and tasked to work on our own. Like any other job there was the initial excitement that comes in as you get the hang of the job until you find your comfort zone and push yourself on. In this case though the tranquil setting and modern decor of the building didn't in any way match the work dynamics and soon work became a chore as i got lost in the sea of people

Initially everyone is tasked to be helpful with the newbies but this doesn't last long. All official communication was done electronically and let's say my two computer screens became my best friends. I'm not one to focus so much on what is not and so as the months went by i learnt to cope, I was not alone but very lonely and alienated most of the time and i learnt to take solace in the occasional friendly voice on the other side of the phone or as fate would have it i had run into an old face that was not only from back home but from my neighborhood. She worked in the IT department on the other side of the building, we would correspond and sometimes managed to have our lunch together and that was plenty of help. However my biggest champion in surviving the lone cold days at that place was in someone i call a friend.

 I remember it was towards Christmas time; I had just been moved to a new team and was working out my bearings trying to find a helpful face. And out of the blue there she was with the most charming smile she asked me what plans I had for the holidays. I told her as a matter of fact i was trying to get out early that day as I wanted to catch the Christmas carols at my local church among other things. Luckily for us it was one of those slow days and we were offered voluntary early release, before i left she asked for my phone number and well i didn't think much of until she called later that night to ask me about the Christmas carols. That phone call was the beginning of many and a great friendship and even across the miles as i have since relocated this woman of excellence continues to inspire me and keep me afloat when I am losing it.

Last weekend, the great cheerleader that she is asked how I was doing and why i had not written in long, I told her I hadn't been particularly inspired and in true form after reassuring me, she sent me something that she had written as a leaf from me. It so spoke to me and of course I asked if I could share, the answer was affirmative so gladly here goes;

Give  Me Your Mountain(By Cassandre Ezike)

 I was sitting in my living room when suddenly I felt a strong urge to pray, i had been thinking back on my life. I had been dealing with a personal issue that rendered my heart very heavy. I even started to doubt God and wanted to give up on Him. I thought what is the point? But I heard in the stillness of my soul. “Give me your Mountain!" And i uttered these exact words underneath my breath , " Jesus i give you this mountain of pain , I give you  this mountain of rejection, I give you this mountain of financial burdens, I give you this mountain of loneliness, I give it all to you Jesus. Anyone that has hurt me, I choose to forgive them and i want you to replace the hurt with your love for i no longer want to hold onto hurt. I give it all to you.  Replace the anger that I harbored for so long with thoughts of you Jesus. I choose to trust you  Jesus even when i don't feel it , even if it doesn’t make sense to me. And thank you for doing it."

In that moment i yielded my spirit to Him and started to thank Him for lifting the burdens off my shoulders and I immediately felt a sudden change.

Jesus said that we would have many troubles in this world, but He has overcome the world. I don't know about you, but when I think of that scripture, it gives me assurance that no matter what I’m facing, no matter how bad it is I will get over it. We can declare the victory knowing that whatever problems we are facing today, Jesus has already overcome. Every mountain that stands in our way  can be removed. Every giant that stands up in battle against us ,can be crashed in Jesus name. Through Christ Jesus i have victory and so can you. It is for a good reason that Jesus' earthly profession was a carpenter. He is the carpenter of my life , when I'm broken He fixes me . Let Him be the carpenter of yours.

And that there  as testified by Cassandre is how we come full circle, by giving our mountain(s) to the Lord.

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